Hello PBR,
The main issue that you (and many other people) have is to incorrectly assume that Anapanasati meditation is breath meditation.
It just happens that Lodonyo had the same issue and he figured out the difference. Please read the topic, “Icchā, Ānāpānasati, Satipatthāna.”
Feel free to ask questions after you read the relevant posts mentioned there and also in the above in my previous reply.