Good householder, not on “guy”, just out of compassion:
It’s good and very needed to see one’s actions as own, make them important, look for it’s beauty and purity, to practice and to abound all of what’s no refuge, including, after having abond objects of identification in the sensual-word, also such as perception, even ideas of Nibbana.
But for now just much care about what’s a useful island, goodness, metta, virtue, purification of Sila, to gain the required Brahma-joy, to be able of refined purification and beyond.
No need to worry about useless identifications which aren’t of much support for doing the task of going beyond Dukkha. Yet that task needs a lot of conceit, a lot of desire for purity, especially when in the mud of sensuality.
Good to stay always by cause and effect and don’t leave the middle path by Papanca.
“To be or not to be” isn’t a releasing question. And no need for further identifications once the deathless, unchanging, is gained
(Samana Johann)