when i contemplate on life and buddha-dhamma sometimes there arises the view that life is not meant to awaken. To awaken and to purify ones mind comes with all kind of obstacles. It is not easy.
It is like nature screams…”stop, you are not meant this way. You are meant to dream, to plan, enjoy like and dislike, have pleasure, enjoy life, create, have fun, make a family etc etc. All kind of purposes but not the purpose to awaken.
To awaken seems the most unnatural thing to strive for and still… there is that longing to find the truth. And there is a sense that beauty is the moral mind, goodness. And the sense that real health is the awakened mind, the Buddha. That can be strong.
I think a lot of ideas about the purpose of life are part of Mara tricks to keep us obsessed with worldly goals in life. To keep us fettered to samsara. Mara is part of ourselves. Mara’s voice will be there constantly when one sets a foot on the Path, is my experience at least.
If this life is created by a God, suppose it is, in my opinion this God was not aiming on the awakening of human beings or other beings God created. God installed a lot of hindrances, as if his aim was that we will function blindly, deluded, defiled. I know, religious people will say this is not Gods aim but the Devils aim. Anyway, i do not belief that in nature wisdom rules, defilements rule, especially tanha and avijja.
Siebe