sometimes, we have to bend our faith to find deeper truth…
Gotama did that too ! :)
https://dhammawiki.com/index.php?title=Udaka_Ramaputta
“This doctrine does not lead to aversion, to absence of passion nor to quiescence for gaining knowledge, supreme wisdom and nibbāna , but only as far as the realm of Neither Perception nor Non-perception. Once there, a long life of 84,000 world cycles is enjoyed only to come back again to the existence of sensual pleasures and be subjected to much suffering. This is not the doctrine of the Undying that I long for.”
Uyap