Yash’s experience seems like a genuine samadhi born out of understanding. Glad to hear your progress.
Yash wrote: “However, when I focus too much on the ‘me’ part, I experience fear – it’s as if the self doesn’t want to let go! But when I return to a more normal understanding, the fear subsides.”
- Yes. That is when the mind’s focus moves away from Nibbana.
The “clarity” will get better with practice. “Nibbana sukha” is not a vedana in mundane terms. It is really a relief from the incessant distress (pilana) of the mind: “Anicca – The Incessant Distress (“Pīḷana”).”
