[abid]

When I first came across this site by sheer luck after heavily contemplating suicide and close to going through with it (by hurling myself off a cliff), I read the definitions of anicca dhukka and anatta on a post from this website alongside many other posts.

I shed a tear as soon as I read it, like a lot of things just started making sense. I got obsessed with learning more about Buddha Dhamma everyday, reading for several hours everyday. 

I reached a point in my contemplations where I felt my mind becoming less burdened and also I felt strange bodily sensations. I felt a profound cooling sensation in the core of my body on my abdomen. I’ve only ever felt this after doing daily 1 hour breath meditations focused on deep breathing from my stomach with timed breaths. Also I felt it after doing long psalm readings (trying to read psalms from 1-150)

But connecting all these dots, between rebirth, kamma, 31 realms, tilakkhanna, four noble truths, paticca samupadda in my mind has naturally removed 90% of my suicidal thoughts and feelings. 
I really am grateful for ven. Lal for spreading this information I would’ve been helpless without it. You have changed lives and helped many people even from death.

This site has helped me more than any therapist or psychiatrist and I’ve got a main life goal to work towards now, which is Nibbana.

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Jittananto

[abid]

I believe I now have direct experience of these teachings so now I have purpose and a direction of where to go and continue. Whereas I was previously suicidal because of my anhedonia and PSSD which made me think I have no future left. But now I can move forward and make as much progress towards Nibbana in this life while making it my goal to live blamelessly and for the benefit of others by working and giving charity.

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Jittananto

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Sādhu! Sādhu!! Sādhu!!!

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[abid]

The crucial realisation for me was:

“if life is anicca nature, what makes you think death will be of nicca nature? Isn’t that a delusion? One will be helpless in the suffering filled rebirth process”

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Hello Abid you talks about Psalms 

Also I felt it after doing long psalm readings (trying to read psalms from 1-150)

You were a catholic before right ? Are you the person who asked on Reddit what other buddhists think about Puredhamma website ??

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abid

[abid]

Jittananto wrote:

Hello Abid you talks about Psalms 

Also I felt it after doing long psalm readings (trying to read psalms from 1-150)

You were a catholic before right ? Are you the person who asked on Reddit what other buddhists think about Puredhamma website ??

I didn’t really identify as Christian or catholic or any other denomination but I was raised in a Moslem environment. Although I didn’t follow much of these rituals associated with religion, I did try to make prayer to the Creator in my own little ways. Some people recommended reading psalms 1-150 on reddit so i followed that to an extent

But no sir I’m not involved with reddit these days and I haven’t talked about puredhamma on there

[Jittananto]

Ohh Okok I see ! Sorry, I must have confused you with someone else.

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