slowly pokes head back in
I’ve… um… mostly been too embarrassed to return. Plus an ever-increasing pile of things I’d want to write but I don’t because reasons. But for now I’ll just post that since going from night- to day-shift things have been going much better for the past few weeks.
But then today happened:
Anicca. Every single time I TRY to change habits, follow advice here or elsewhere, engage in SOME sort of personal self-improvement project whether learning a new language or bodybuilding or Buddhism or even just cleaning up, KA-FRIGGA-BOOM an Attack happens (whether too happy or too angry or both somehow) and tornado-wrecks the house of cards I just started to stack. shakes head But I gotta get ready for the job I absolutely hate, so I can spend 80% of what I make on a home that only I live in, all that hard work with nothing and nobody to come home to but a mess and my computer into which to escape. Anicca.