Ok, Johnny_Lim…your comment can’t be a coincidence! I just left a month long visit at Thēravada Bhikkhuni monastery. I like you had a judgment issue and I suffered. I call them Māras. These Māras where part of the reason I cut my visit short. I have judgements with how the Vinaya is being upheld regarding beautification and sexual orientation.
I’m just too old school to adjust to the current trends of society. Not so coincidentally, my elderly dad had a fall and I’m going to visit them to help. And, figure out where to go next.
Had a thought regarding “determinism” from the comment I made above…maybe an entire lifetime worth of kamma seeds exist regardless of where you go, so there’s no escape because we all owe each other so much debt. If a lifetime is established to settle a particular theme they’re going come regardless of the condition of mind good or bad.
P.S. the profile picture on this site isn’t the look I sport at the monastery out of respect.