Dear all,
Thank you so much for your replies. I really appreciate the kindness and honesty in what each of you shared 🙏
I understand better now that even a good wish can become clinging if I hold onto it too tightly. My main intention is not “to become a bhikkhunī” as a goal by itself, but to keep purifying the mind and practising wisely. If the path leads to Anāgāmi, that would of course be far more meaningful than just wearing robes.
At the same time, I also see how monastic life can sometimes help by giving fewer distractions. So I am only exploring gently, not rushing, not forcing, just learning what possibilities exist.
It was also helpful to know that bhikkhunī ordination is unlikely at Waharaka monasteries. That gives me a realistic picture. If the future ever points toward ordination, I may have to look elsewhere while still trying to stay aligned with correct Dhamma.
For now, I will keep practising as a lay person, focusing on anicca, living with sila, and using uposatha days and quiet times for deeper reflection. I trust that if conditions are right, the next step will become clear naturally.
Thank you again for your guidance and encouragement. Theruwan Saranai 🙏
