I totally understand though that this can be just a me problem. All the information is there, but as ven.Lal said before, one has to take the time to seriously dig through the posts and contemplate in quiet time and it’s not some trivial read.
this could just be a form of avija trying to make my mind sleepy when trying to learn Buddha Dhamma with much effort. Serious study is needed but a part of me wished that this profound information was presented in an easier to digest way. But I can only get stronger and keep diligently trying