Appreciate the replies, y’all.
I think I ended up ranting more than I should have. I am happy to share though that I have accepted a job offer from a Fortune 100 company here in Ohio. It happened really quick but it looks like I will stay in the US for a little longer than I thought and it is a great opportunity to get more stable. Regarding finding the person I shared a genuine interaction with, I’ve decided to drop the desperation. I moved on 3 years ago because I was younger and unsure. I think I can move on now with more wisdom and because it looks like I’ve hit a dead end trying to find them. I do plan to visit a mental health professional to discuss these issues.
I will also share that the end goal for me is to discover the truth. Even getting to “jānato” stage sounds like a major milestone and I don’t really care much about “labels”. With that said, I do not intend to be too hard on myself and want to let fate grow me. Hopefully, there will be more growth opportunities as time goes on. If it is better to refrain from bringing up such personal issues in the forum, please let me know.
Thanks again!
