Reply To: What Is That Single Most Difficult Obstacle You Have Faced?

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Johnny_Lim
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Hi Tobias,

I think you are right to say that vicikicca and uddacca-kukkucca are probably more pronounced for me. Especially the latter. Back then, I continually needed to grasp sense objects to quench my cravings. Otherwise, I would feel bored and my mind would proliferate. And each time I gave in to sensual cravings, it only became worse. At one time, I had collected 21 cameras and god knows why I needed so many cameras. And the keen interest in travelling together with photography are the worst combo I had to deal with. Had I not encountered Buddha Dhamma, I think my collection will still be growing today. The doctrine of Paticca Samuppada totally changed me. Especially the part when it explains habitual formations. I knew I needed to do something drastic to repair my lifestyle.