You also seem to be projecting a lot, which happens to most religious and ignorant people (in the sense of Dhamma), projecting their future, beliefs, and ideas, while in Dhamma, you see reality, ask questions, and try to know things as they are. It’s clear that you’re projecting too much, generating a lot more weight for yourself than you need. Your mindset is what generates anxiety and panic attacks as you put yourself into that position, it’s not always kamma, even if kamma is to blame we still need to do our best and put effort to balance out our life. My advice would be less projecting, more insight and more responsibility for your actions, if you think life should go the way you project it then you will feel anxiety and panic attacks. If you are into stoic stuff you should remember “Seek not for events to happen as you wish but rather wish for events to happen as they do and your life will go smoothly.” The quite is from Enchirion, but it’s a bit weird english translation. The real meaning behind that quote is that you do not want to create things as you want but rather apply mind to things happening, you apply to situation rather than making situation the way you want.
A Quest to Recover Buddha's True Teachings
