Hi Taryal, it’s been a while! I’m in the same age group as you so my opinion will be different from a more experienced person. I advise you to see a therapist for this kind of problem. It can bring relief (at least temporarily) and bring to light our own traumas. We have accumulated traumas since our early childhood that remain and leave traces. The therapist will be able to bring them to light and will propose solutions that can alleviate them. Personally, I will soon make an appointment to diagnose certain toxic aspects of my mind. I have certain behaviours that can be toxic for those around me. This kind of behaviour comes from the environment where I grew up. The good thing is that at least we realize our problems early. It is better to be aware of this than at 60 for example. The older we get, the worse our mental health will get. However, therapy will never be able to get to the root of the problem which is Avijjā, Tanha and Patigha. Bhantes aren’t always qualified to help us with our current mental health. They can only give us the ultimate solution. Therapy fails to see past lives traumas and the toxicity of the rebirth process. It is the Pure Dhamma of Lord Buddha or his noble disciples that will cure us forever of all mental suffering. You and I are very fortunate since we have the true Dhamma thanks to people like Sir Lal and the monks of Waharaka and Jethavanarama Monasteries.
As the Most Venerable Waharaka Thero said, on our path to Nibbana, we must not ignore the supporting conditions. Supporting conditions are actions that help us on the path, but they should not be put above everything else. I believe that seeing a therapist is a supportive condition. May you attain the Supreme Bliss of Nibbāna and the end of all mental suffering. 🙏🏿🪷🌸