Oops. Just noticed there’s a “Personal Experiences” subforum that’d’ve been a better fit for this thread. :\
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One thing I keep noticing happening, not sure what to call it, but every so often I receive an out-of-“nowhere” string of memories (almost always bad ones, but sometimes wholly “new” or “branched off” fantasies) that seemingly rewrite themselves into worse versions which cause me to instantly get angry for no apparent reason until I catch myself. If I don’t somehow put a stop to it, these Bad Thoughts will invariably turn hateful and violent. And even then the aggression stays a while more often than not, especially after the violent kinds. These happen more often when I’m blue and bored, or already in a bad mood. Sometimes I notice them occurring after or during loud, aggressive music, too. Even if it’s a “happy” tune, or if I happen to be attracted to the singer. I should start watching and noting when and how they occur…