Thank you all for your replies! _/|\_
With regards to the sense pleasures, as Lal mentioned, they’re not dasa akusala (immoral), just the nice/tasty things that’s causing the aversions that have been pushed into “light” quicker due to suffering. Maybe these harsh little kamma vipaka are reminders to not go backwards again. Like the saying “once is a mistake, twice is a pattern and three times is a habit”. Think it’s time to kick the “habit” or else!!!
Johnny pointed out the “will to live” and “dying soon”. Interestingly, these are topics I’ve been contemplating over the past couple of weeks. To answer #2, if you were going to die today or tomorrow, what would you do? I would first sigh in relief, then be concerned about an unfinished family responsibility, and then think on the only thing on the “bucket list” and that is peace, a truly balanced and even state of mind.
What’s still on your “bucket list”? Is it worth more than attaining any of the stages of Nibbana?
With metta,
Donna :)