Sybe:
By ‘doing right’ you of course mean doing what needs to be done or what you feel you should so. Is that it?
There in something in the way of your authentic self and therefore what you want to express. The habits or natural tendecies of how to react (shyness, reticence, apprehension,fear) form a wall. It has cost me. At one time I saw it as a ‘struggle to the death’ between heart and mind. And the done cannot be undone. Or, the undone cannot be done.
Or can it ever? Nietzsche spoke of the idea of ‘eternal recurrence’ Luckily he was only a philosopher.
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