Thank you Jittananto and Lal for your reflections. Moving to an environment that enables following dhamma more easily was what felt intensely true for a while and at the same time I felt like I’m still needed here. I have, thanks to you all, made peace with the thought that everything has its own time and that my journey might look different as long as I work in the right direction.
I am already in contact with the monastery. I didn’t get to speak to a monk yet, but they will organize a meeting. I think I will start with a visit at some point.
Metta to all
