y not said: “When I am observing mindfulness no thoughts of greed, hate or anger arise at all as far as I remember. There is no fight going on at any time.”
Later on, “………the web page just disappeared and I was greeted with an ‘An snap’just when I hit submit (my last post)
I was V EEEEEEEEEE RY angry!!!!”
This is exactly what I am talking about. It is EASY to have a peaceful mindset when one is in formal meditation. Anusaya is suppressed.
But when something drastic happens (as with the difficulty in posting), that anusaya comes to the surface. Depending on the situation, it could be greed/lust, anger, or just vicikicca (not sure how to respond and do something foolish).
We need to pay more attention to the second situation and control anger at that time. That is real Satipatthana and Anapana.
When we learn to control such outbursts, the frequency of occurrence of such events will gradually decrease. That is the whole point.
Even while in meditation, one can get all such defiled thoughts creeping to the mind, and one MUST not let them continue. Those are conscious defiled thoughts (bad vaci sankhara).
In both cases, one must think about the bad consequences of keeping such thoughts. That is the best way to get rid of them.
I hope y not will not be offended by my remarks. I am making these forceful comments out of compassion to make a difference for everyone.